My life was a mess and I didn’t know how to fix it. I needed a way out, and I had no idea where to start. Being an avid reader, I went to the bookstore hoping to be drawn to something that would offer the solutions I sought. Yes, I was calling for guidance from a source I barely understood and only partly believed was real. It was in Barnes and Noble that day where I was guided to the book Life Visioning by Dr. Michael Beckwith. When I bought that book, I was at the lowest point in my life.
At the time, I was trapped in a well-paying job that I hated. You may be thinking, “Oh poor you … trapped in a well-paying job.” You make a good point. In fact, I said that same thing to myself over and over. I told myself how blessed I was, but it didn’t make the ugly feelings inside go away. In fact, it only added guilt to my already messed up life.
I know that earning a good paycheck seems like a not-so-bad position to be in, but I didn’t merely dislike my job, I’d grown to despise it. The pressure and stress were unbearable. Truth is, I allowed it to consume my entire life. (Spoiler alert: the job was not the real problem – I was. Keep reading to know more …)
My life was a mess and I didn’t know what to do.
I was miserable. My life had no sense of balance, no sense of peace, and the few days when I tapped into joy (mostly on vacations), I found that the happiness was fleeting. When the joy passed, I was left with a deep sense of depression and loss.
The career crisis was only the tip of the iceberg. I allowed my spiritual life to shrivel away. My personal life was mostly characterized by coming home to an empty house, usually after putting in an 11 or 12-hour day. I didn’t even dare keep a pet for companionship because my schedule was too unreliable.
I let my friendships drift away. I did not invest in new relationships … I stopped trying.
My weight ballooned. Fast food and infrequent exercise became the norm.
Instead of taking time for walks and nature on the weekends, I nestled into the couch.
Every aspect of my life was impacted by my decision to hold fast and tight to a job that wasn’t right for me anymore.
I invested everything in that job; it became my identity. I was afraid to leave, believing that I would never find another way to support myself if I did. I didn’t even know who’d I’d be if I left; I’d been there 22 years and couldn’t imagine what life would be without my executive title and the accompanying paycheck.
Frankly, I knew I didn’t need as much money as I was earning; what I needed and longed for was deeper meaning in my life. I was also desperate for lightness in my life. I was so unhappy that there were times that I thought why even bother living; I had these thoughts more than I care to admit.
My life was a mess. Looking back, I know that while I blamed the job for my state of perpetual stress and unhappiness, the truth was that how I was living my entire life was the real problem.
I didn’t believe I deserved to be treated well. I didn’t believe I could experience happiness more than every now and then.
I didn’t believe that I could support myself if I made a career change. I didn’t believe that I held any worth at all except through my work. I didn’t believe in myself. I didn’t take chances and my attempts to change were ill-conceived and insincere at best.
I was in my own way and I didn’t see it.
I prayed for a way out. When I reached for Michael Beckwith’s teachings, it was like I had been handed a lifeline.
Michael Beckwith’s Life Visioning helped me get a clearer picture of what I wanted my life to look and feel like. It awakened in me a connection to spirit that I’d thought was long gone. It allowed me to see possibilities instead of dead-ends for my life. And, it gave me the tools I needed to muster up the courage to make dramatic changes that would forever change the trajectory of my life … all in an incredibly positive way.
Michael Beckwith is one of a handful of people who helped me make my way out of my old life and into the life I lead now. (I also give big props to Wayne Dyer, Louise Hay, and Pema Chödrön.) My life is not perfect, but it’s at least a thousand times better.
Yes, I quit the job and I survived. Yes, I realize that the job itself was NEVER the real problem; I’d merely outgrown it and it was ready for a dramatic change.
The problem you think is the problem is often not the REAL problem.
The real problem back then was I was looking at myself, my potential, and my life incorrectly. Moreover, I wallowed in pain far longer than was necessary because I didn’t take the time to create a compelling vision for my life much less begin to execute that compelling vision. (B&C has a free tool for that).
Moreover, I was a spiritual being living without connecting to my spiritual center. You’ve heard the expression that “the pain pushes until the vision pulls” … that’s what was happening to me. Michael Beckwith helped me move from pain into the vision stage of my life, and for that, I’m forever grateful. Beckwith taught me that my possibilities were much bigger than my pain. He helped me reconnect to my spiritual core.
If your life feels like it needs fixing, don’t go it alone. Get the help you need.
When I sincerely embraced a bigger vision for my life … when I walked in the direction of my purpose … a happier, less stressful, more fulfilling life began to unfold for me. The same can happen for you.
Are you willing to embrace change? If you’re not, your life won’t get better. Painful changes are often necessary for beautiful new chapters to begin. It may be time for you to start a new chapter. Don’t resist it; embrace it!
If you need help sorting it all out, like I did, then get help. There are lots of ideas already mentioned in this post, and even more ideas listed throughout this website (a great quick read here is When Your Life Feels Like a Mess, It’s Time to Go Within; in fact, it’s our most popular post).
If you want to get a big head start, I urge you to explore Michael Beckwith’s teachings, including his Life Visioning online program (more details on it below – or click here for complete course information).
Whatever you do, do something that helps you step forward. You deserve to live a happy life. It’s up to you to claim it.
Photo Credit: The picture I posted above is one I took while visiting the Grand Tetons in Wyoming. When you feel lost and confused in your life, I strongly recommend getting out and seeing the beauty of this world. Nature has healing powers that are far more powerful than we usually give it credit for.
A Few Links to Michael Beckwith’s Conversation with Oprah on Super Soul Sunday:
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I’m So Excited that Michael Beckwith Now Offers His Training through an Amazing Online Course.*
I believe so strongly in Dr. Beckwith’s work that I share my experience with him just about everywhere I can. When I heard that Michael Beckwith teamed up with the amazing people and Mindvalley Academy to bring his teachings alive in his Life Visioning Course, I just had to pass the word along.
This course reveals the little known spiritual formula to living a deeply fulfilled, purposeful life.
It eliminates the struggle of trying to “find” your purpose. You will discover how to turn on that switch that permanently lights up your life’s purpose in your mind, so you can begin pursuing it in your life.
The entire process will liberate you from the frequent emotional turmoils you experience in life and let you be free to follow your heart — no if’s, but’s or the cursed how’s.
You’ll be a completely different person after this. It’s like getting an “upgraded operating system” for your mind.
Does a rose seed need to discover that it will grow into a rose? Or does it simply need to be put into a fertile environment so its intrinsic nature has the nourishment required for it to find its natural, beautiful, highest expression of growth? Human beings are in fact, no different. And when you are nourished by the right environment, you will also blossom into the divine expression of who you really are.” – Michael Beckwith
Michael Beckwith will teach you how to create the right environment to let your intrinsic nature reveal itself.You’ll learn how to ask the right questions, gain the right insights, and begin the beautiful journey of living your divine purpose.
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*Note: this program is not open year-round, but is available multiple times throughout the year. If it’s not open when you check it out, check back later. If it is open, grab your seat now while you can!