To be honest, I’m no expert on living in awareness and mindfulness. I’m just another person on the path who messed up on an epic scale and now I’m sharing what’s helped me find more peace and deep satisfaction.
It’s been a slow process yet I know the speed at which I’m transforming is just right, because life is not one single event but rather a series of small decisions and actions, when gathered up over time all contribute to the whole.
At any point in the journey we call life, we are all given the opportunity to change directions, and the choice to live more mindfully is a decision that changed my life forever.
Here’s a little back story about me. I’ll keep it brief, because the details aren’t what matters; what matters is the transformation.
I used to live my life in a dense fog. I thought I understood the rules of life. I worked hard in school and then (eventually) I got a good job where I worked even harder to climb the corporate ladder. My life centered around work, which worked for a time, but then I began feeling more and more uncomfortable.
I wasn’t happy. I was caught up in anxiety and depression. I’d adopted behaviors that seemed harmless at first but in time spun into full-fledged addictions that were affecting my health, my finances, my relationships, and eventually sent me into spiritual despair. I thought I had done what I needed to do to create a great life, but I was far too one-dimensional in my approach.
My life was seriously off-track. I’d reached what felt like emotional rock-bottom and I prayed for help … the most sincere, desperate prayers I ever uttered. I didn’t get what I expected, but rather what I needed.